The Road Of Life

Aum Sairam

At first, I saw God as my observer, my judge, keeping track of the
things I did wrong; so as to know whether I merited heaven or hell when
I die. He was there sort of like a picture of a president. I recognized
His picture when I saw it, but I really didn't know Him.

Later on when I met Sri Sai, it seemed as though life was like a bike
ride, on a tandem bike, and I noticed that Sri Sai was in the back
helping me pedal. I don't recall when he suggested we change places,
but life has not been the same since.

When I had control, it was rather boring, and predictable . . . It was
the shortest distance between two points. But when He took the lead, He
knew the exciting paths to take, up mountains, and through rocky places
at breakneck speeds -- it was all I could do to just hang on! At times
it seemed like madness. He said: "Pedal!"

And by faith I did, although I worried and was anxious. "Where are you
taking me?" He laughed, but no answer, and I started to learn to trust.
I forgot my boring life and entered into the adventure.

When I'd say, "I'm scared," He'd lean back and touch my hand. He took
me to people that had gifts that I needed. Gifts of healing,
acceptance, love, and joy. So many priceless gifts to take on my
journey -- my Lord's and mine. Then we were off again. He said, "Give
the gifts away -- they're extra baggage now -- there'll be more gifts
to come." So I did, I gave them to people we met, and found that in
giving I also received, and my burden was lighter.

I didn't trust him at first to be in control of my life. I thought He'd
wreck it -- but I discovered he knows how to handle even the roughest
roads in my life. Now I'm learning to be quiet and pedal in the
strangest places. I'm beginning to enjoy the view, the challenge of the
ride, as well as the cool breeze on my face with my delightful constant
companion -- Sri Sai.

When it seems I just can't take anymore, I keep my eyes and faith on
Him. He looks at me, with a big smile, and says: ". . . Keep on Pedaling."

"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am Your
Father. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with
my victorious hand."

Allah Malik